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I do good for so long, then out of no where everything hits me. Hits me that I have moved on, and your not gonna hurt me anymore. I look at the wall where I had things of us, and its empty now. I get chills thinking about the way I was hurt and how much I’m trying to hind the pain. Covering up my sadness with happiness that isnt there. Wishing to find a way to fell the whole, But not wanting to get hurt. Souldnt matter knowing that hurt is all I know. I will never understand why I still miss you. Never will understand how I could love someone that hurt me the way you have so many times. Then to sit here and see you happy with someone new like i was a nothing but shit. To see how fast you could fall in love with her. To think of all the things you promised. I feel like at times its my fault for letting you go, if i would have kept you, maybe things would have gotten better between us. I hate not talking to you. But I cant, knowing you let someone just take my place like i was nothing. I could have been the girl beside you but I’m not…. and… never… will… be… One day ill be fully over you, but i don’t know how long that will really take.  I hope soon.